Monotonous Monday

It's 4:30 a.m., here in New York & I still have not gone to bed. I have to be up at 8 a.m. to get ready to take my son for a psych. evaluation. He is 8 yrs. old & autistic. He is a sweetheart, but has problems with impulse control. I love him to death, but there are days when he makes me want to scream my head off. Saturday, we went over to my sister's apt., for her 4 yr. old son's birthday party. It was just for the family. My parents are separated, but they both were present. My middle sister came from N.J. and my youngest sister was also there. I didn't eat anything before I got there, because I knew that I had to eat in order to not arouse suspicion. All I had at home, was a cup of black coffee. When they all had potato chips, I ate some baked vegetable sticks that my sister had bought. They came in 3 flavors, potato, spinach and tomato. They were very low in calories. I only had a handful & only ate the spinach ones. Then it was time for dinner. I ate 1/2 cup of pasta with parma & tomato sauce, 1/2 croissant, 1 roasted chicken leg and a 2-in. square piece of lasagna. I felt like I was gonna burst! I wanted to purge so badly but didn't dare for fear of being heard. Then to top it off, I had a big piece of cake with ice cream. What a pig! One of my nephew's gift was a bicycle & he was excited. Then they gave my son a bike too. I was not expecting it 'cause his birthday had been in January. It seeems that everyone pitched in to get it for my son.:+) Friday the 15th was my birthday and I am now 39 yrs. old. When they sang Happy Birthday to my nephew, they included me. I even got a few gifts. Not bad, but I wish I hadn't eaten all that food. Got home a little before 8 p.m. and ate 12 oz. of prunes with lots of water. It helps to clean out my system. I just noticed that I have a follower. I'm very excited! Thanks Jena. I also read your blog.Let's all encourage each other & we can reach our goals. My goal is to get to 145 lbs.