Sunday, May 24, 2009

Almost Sunday

Well, friday was hideous. My sister who is 1 yr. younger than me, was getting on my mother's case about her lack of cleaning. So, I told my sister," Look forget about it, you're not gonna get anywhere with her." And my mother blew up at me and said "Mind your own business!" And I told her "Look, I wasn't even talking to you, I was just trying to stop the argument" She got furious and came at me with the T.V. remote control, like if she was gonna hit me with it or throw it at me. It was unreal. So I told her "that's not christian behavior, what's wrong with you?" She is a church lady & thinks she is so holy-holy. She just got mad 'cause me & my sister were telling her the truth in her face and she couldn't handle it. When my sister left, I went to my room and worked off my angry energy by exercising. It felt so good! My mother started to talk to me later in the evening, like the argument never happened. She always does that & never apologizes for anything. Today was a good day. I woke up, gave my son breakfast, made coffee. I was sewing a Jean skirt cause it now fits me too big. My aunt & cousin came over. I gave them coffee & chatted with them while my mother ran a quick errand. Even they noticed my mother's erratic behavior. I'm glad to see that it's not all my imagination. The sad part is that she refuses to acknowledge that she even has a problem. My fiance went fishing with my dad & brother-in-law. He was gone since 5:20 a.m. My son & I were on our own. I took his bike downstairs and walked to a nearby park so he could ride. I walked briskly & even ran for about 30 mins. I got a good workout. Met up with my mother 'cause she remembered that she had offered to buy me a cell phone as a belated birthday gift. We went to a store where she had shopped before. I got a cute phone for $50. It's not a flip phone, which is what I was avoiding. It even has a radio & flashlight. I'm listening to the phone's radio with the head set on, 'cause right now it's 4:39 a.m. Well today, I barely ate. Just had a bit of dinner; 1/2 cup of mixed veggies & a small steamed chicken cutlet. I already lost the 3 lbs. that I had gained last week. I even managed to lose an extra pound. So far, I've lost 24 lbs. I'm still fat, but I'm on the right track. I'm still too embarassed to tell you ladies how much I weigh. Maybe when I've lost another 20 lbs., I will have the courage to reveal my weight. Hopefully, that will happen in the next few weeks! Good luck to everyone in reaching their goals!


  1. ur so lucky to not have to worry about parents on you EVERYDAY lol

  2. I know how it feels when you've made so much progress but feel so uncomfortable talking about your weight. In the beginning I was both scared and ashamed to post my weight to, but I got over it. I used that fear as motivation to want to get it down even more. I know you'll get down to where you want to be, and you don't ever have to reveal your weight. Its up to you.

  3. reaching gaols is just an illusion it will never be enough...I hope you find this out sooner rathe then later. I have had an ed for 14 years and weather I have been 90pounds or 150 its never good enough...stop trying to fight nature...go with what feels okay...although i know nothing does...

    love, Z